Friday, August 14, 2009 AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I get fucked up by different people behind my back..WHY!?
I said like so many thousands time i hate people saying at my back! if dont like can say at my face i wont do anything!!!! urgh!...
Great today really bad day....alright.
first got screwed up in the nemation..
SECOND-> got fucked up by someone behind my back and its my very trusted good long young friend! i cant believe i fell for it after trying to treat her they way i can.
THIRD--> SELF REFLECTIONS!
and lastly i dont know what to say either..
Hai~ i choose to trust people. but i get backstab and i backstab them back as well.
trying to change that part....but what said is already said i wont want to because of this problem come find your trouble....you were all good friends but yet i didnt know you choose to say stuff from your mouth THAT isnt TRUE at ALL!!.....i dont even know if my brain is still working.
all this effects my relationship and i blindly followed it. Thanks alot for someone to tell me.
I guess im stupid trust so many people......i think about what i did before...sometimes its my fault but it cant most of the time be MY FAULT!?....right???forget it.
FUCK IT FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY AM I ALWAYS DISAPPOINTING PEOPLE? WHY AM I ALWAYS A BITCH?
WHY CANT I USE MY BRAIN TO THINK HOW PEOPLE FEEL?
WHY AM I STUPID?
WHY PEOPLE LIE TO ME?
WHY PEOPLE WANT TO FUCKED OTHER PEOPLE BEHIND THEIR BACK?
WHY!
WHY!
WHY!
WHY!
WHY!
i am so confused yet fucked up plus i dont know what i did.
Im really sorry really sorry..
but its not use taking back your words saying those are bullshit.
I guess im used to being alone. i am really sorry for hurting you making you sad.
i guess thats all i got to say im sorry.
Wont be updating my blog for this 2 days.
i guess i wont be doing anything then....
i only wanted to make you happy and love you and care for you...
but i guess that i made you think the opposite round.
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I get fucked up by different people behind my back..WHY!?
I said like so many thousands time i hate people saying at my back! if dont like can say at my face i wont do anything!!!! urgh!...
Great today really bad day....alright.
first got screwed up in the nemation..
SECOND-> got fucked up by someone behind my back and its my very trusted good long young friend! i cant believe i fell for it after trying to treat her they way i can.
THIRD--> SELF REFLECTIONS!
and lastly i dont know what to say either..
Hai~ i choose to trust people. but i get backstab and i backstab them back as well.
trying to change that part....but what said is already said i wont want to because of this problem come find your trouble....you were all good friends but yet i didnt know you choose to say stuff from your mouth THAT isnt TRUE at ALL!!.....i dont even know if my brain is still working.
all this effects my relationship and i blindly followed it. Thanks alot for someone to tell me.
I guess im stupid trust so many people......i think about what i did before...sometimes its my fault but it cant most of the time be MY FAULT!?....right???forget it.
FUCK IT FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY AM I ALWAYS DISAPPOINTING PEOPLE? WHY AM I ALWAYS A BITCH?
WHY CANT I USE MY BRAIN TO THINK HOW PEOPLE FEEL?
WHY AM I STUPID?
WHY PEOPLE LIE TO ME?
WHY PEOPLE WANT TO FUCKED OTHER PEOPLE BEHIND THEIR BACK?
WHY!
WHY!
WHY!
WHY!
WHY!
i am so confused yet fucked up plus i dont know what i did.
Im really sorry really sorry..
but its not use taking back your words saying those are bullshit.
I guess im used to being alone. i am really sorry for hurting you making you sad.
i guess thats all i got to say im sorry.
Wont be updating my blog for this 2 days.
i guess i wont be doing anything then....
i only wanted to make you happy and love you and care for you...
but i guess that i made you think the opposite round.
Labels: i hate everything EVERYTHING.
written at Friday, August 14, 2009
